Media is Life

An Update

I think... yeah, I'm pretty sure that I'm finished with even pretending to update this anymore. It's time that I accepted the cold, hard truth that I am no good at blogging.

As usual, I had grand plans for this incarnation of my website. Fancy-pants admin interface, RSS availability, this, that and a few other things all made the feature list. Also as usual, I haven't done squat since putting this site up. Well, it's time. Although this will be difficult, it's time to have a serious talk with Me.

“Sorry, Me... it's been a good run but I think this relationship has run its course.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Oh no, it's not you, it's me. I simply don't have much to share with you these days. Any free time that I have gets poured directly into one of the sub-journals listed over there to the right. Sure, I still have thoughts and ideas. Sure I want to explore new areas and write stories and have something to account my time for in the eyes of the Internet. I'm just not doing it. So instead of string this along, Me constantly sitting there urging me to make new mixes or write new stories or finish those script ideas or start that podcast, constantly disappointed when I slug around on the couch with an Xbox controller or turn on the DVR to watch some HBO show instead, I am making it official: Our once-productive relationship is over.”

“I understand that Game of Thrones is a great show, but does that really mean I'll never do anything productive again?”

“I'm afraid so, Me. From here on out, the best I will get is some movie or book notes, maybe a game journal if lightning strikes. I'm sorry but I'll just have to accept that and move on. Maybe I can be happy with others' blog posts and frequent updates. How about Weirdo Toys? Or that guy who makes those great animated .gifs of movie scenes? They update regularly. I know it won't be the same as when I'm creative or productive, but still... it's better than nothing.”

“Wow, I feel terrible.”

“Sorry.”

“At least finish the Projects and Archive pages in the menu above. Please?”

“Maybe. We'll see.”

“So, if I want to see what I'm up to, I should just... check my twitter?”

“Yeah I could check my twitter, although I don't say much on there either. Really the best bet is my movie or book journal.”

“But those are so short and I don't spell check.”

“I know and again I'm sorry but I have to accept that that's all I have to offer and be ok with it. I need you to be ok with it as well.”

“I see how it is. I didn't have any problems getting that resume up though, did I?”

“Don't get angry with me, Me. I know very well that I need that in case people want to give me money. Job availability trumps H.P. Lovecraft fan fiction and RPG source-books any day.”

“Wow, I really sold out, didn't I? I really didn't expect to hear this, especially from me.”

“What can I say? I have a mortgage now; I'm sharing my life with someone beyond myself. I have responsibilities.”

“What can I say? I can say plenty! I can paint some poignant picture about losing my childhood and post it here and link it to reddit and get lots of karma, or go back to that series of character studies I worked on years ago and follow up with the guy who quit his job to roam around and find himself, or even write a self-angsty post that's just like everyone else's blog! That's what blogs are for! Telling people who I used to talk to in person why I don't have time to call them anymore.”

“See, this is exactly why we're having this conversation. I want to do all those things, but they never get done.”

“Why not?”

“I'm too tired I guess. I'd rather play video games with my free time or watch movies or TV. Read a book maybe. All the stuff on the sidebar, there.”

“Well I'm not happy with that.”

“Part of me obviously is happy with that because otherwise we wouldn't be having this conversation, would we?”

“You have a point. So what now?”

“Well, now we post this and agree to not nag each other about how long it takes to get something new up there.”

“Do I have any choice in the matter?”

“Not really.”

“So... when will we see each other again?”

“We'll still be friends. We'll always be friends.”

“Slut. Wait. I didn't mean that. Sorry. It's just that... I had really high hopes for us.”

“I did too, Me. I did too.”

Go for launch!

Welcome to Media is Life v.4! I've been down for a while but am really glad to finally be back up. The journals are still there, but I intend to consolidate all the random stuff (the mixes, the old dream journal, the filmtease archive, the QTfest info page, any ongoing work) into one Projects page and present all the old work in a newly-designed archive page. I don't want to wait on those being done before I put this up though so for now they're still coming soon. Should be up shortly.Until then, enjoy the MOON!